About

This blog is a record of my journey’s, thoughts, opinions and my hunger to live a life that is pleasing to my Savior..

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I”m kind of following an example of Molly Piper’s about page…so forgive me for borrowing

I am a Christian. I grew up in church and in fact my father is a Southern Baptist Pastor, but I experienced Jesus for myself in August 1998 during a “camp’ meeting. I went forward kind of confused by the feelings of guilt that I was having but my Daddy was quick to explain exactly what salvation was. I understood for myself that Jesus really died for all the horrible things I’d done, though he didn’t deserve it, and that I couldn’t live the same way with that knowledge. God changed my heart and life that night.

I am a wife to Brandon Milan. We got married on October 6th, 2006. We met when I was 16 but we were internet friends until August of 2004 when we reconnected at North Greenville University. That fall we began a friend-lationship that didn’t last too long and was kind of a joke to all who knew us, but we were engaged in the Fall of 2005 after God had really challenged my faith, heart and calling through me working at one of the best and most Christ centered places in the world, Snowbird Wilderness Outfitters <www.swoutfitters.com>. Then a year later we got married and have been on one big incredible journey. I think I married the best and coolest guy on the planet! Plus he’s REAL funny and is such a talented musician it will make you want to vomit.

I am a musician. I am a singer/songwriter and play the guitar, and little bits of other instruments but really I just pretend on those. I have a huge heart for worship ministry and the local church and am getting a master’s degree in Worship Ministry. I have also recently come to the realization that God is relentlessly calling me to use my music but I have no idea in what capacity I am supposed to do that. So join me as I journey through God’s calling on my life and music ministry.

I am a youth pastor’s wife. They call us a “pastor couple” up here and I really like that because even though I know I am not supposed to take the role of pastor, but am supposed to help my husb lead, I pour my heart and soul into our students, this town and our church family. I love Jesus and am trying to learn what it means to take up my cross and follow Him, I love His people and all of our messiness, and I love ministry. PLUS, we are Carolinian’s (southerners to the extreme) living in Northern Manitoba Canada, very literally at our “ends of the earth”.

I am an artist…But just as a hobby. Someone once told me that I had been described to them as one of the most artistic people that they knew. They said that it was because I see the world differently than everyone else. That I see and feel, hear and touch more of it, and in a more vibrant way. That when a normal person sees green grass, I don’t just see green but I see thousands of colors, and I don’t just see grass but I see all of the endless possibilities of what it could be. The fact that someone would explain me in such an accurate way will always stick with me and it kind of makes me happy.

I want to be a momma. I used to teach preschool (which has been one of the most rewarding jobs I”ve had) and I babysat for years. I loved it. I thought for a long time that it was because I really love teaching, but God showed me this year that I don’t actually care all that much for teaching children, but that I just care for children. I can’t have kids, and this has been a huge point of grief and loss in my life since I was 17, it also comes with a whole host of health issues. I know that God will give us children somehow, someday…I still kind of have a hard time waiting and trusting.