Comments for an atypical speakeasy http://themilans.wordpress.com rants from the frozen tundra. call me ishmael..er I mean Leah Wed, 09 Dec 2009 15:12:39 +0000 http://wordpress.com/ hourly 1 Comment on Dear loved ones, (family friends, etc.) by mama http://themilans.wordpress.com/2009/12/08/dear-loved-ones-family-friends-etc/#comment-147 mama Wed, 09 Dec 2009 15:12:39 +0000 http://themilans.wordpress.com/?p=139#comment-147 Dear Leah and Brandon, This morning as I was in the shower getting ready for work and praying. I felt like the Lord has given me a word to tell you. As I have prayed for God to wrap his loving arms around you and Brandon each day. He tells me to tell you to "run" to our loving arms waiting for you, to "run" to a safe haven called home, to "run" to the people who love you most. To know that we are anxiously waiting for you to be here to give and give more abuntantly all that we have to give called love. To not be anxious or worried about how people will act or react or what they will say or not say, those are scripts you can only play out in your head and the truth is we have no controll over it. But know that if the intention is love no matter what it is, it will be what you need. So, "run" as fast as you can, and get here as fast as you can, be safe and don't get a speeding ticket but "run". Can't wait to touch you, Love, Mama Dear Leah and Brandon,

This morning as I was in the shower getting ready for work and praying. I felt like the Lord has given me a word to tell you. As I have prayed for God to wrap his loving arms around you and Brandon each day. He tells me to tell you to “run” to our loving arms waiting for you, to “run” to a safe haven called home, to “run” to the people who love you most. To know that we are anxiously waiting for you to be here to give and give more abuntantly all that we have to give called love. To not be anxious or worried about how people will act or react or what they will say or not say, those are scripts you can only play out in your head and the truth is we have no controll over it. But know that if the intention is love no matter what it is, it will be what you need.
So, “run” as fast as you can, and get here as fast as you can, be safe and don’t get a speeding ticket but “run”. Can’t wait to touch you, Love, Mama

]]> Comment on Dear loved ones, (family friends, etc.) by transwriter http://themilans.wordpress.com/2009/12/08/dear-loved-ones-family-friends-etc/#comment-146 transwriter Wed, 09 Dec 2009 14:10:56 +0000 http://themilans.wordpress.com/?p=139#comment-146 Hey Leah. I'm reading THE SHACK right now. Have you read it? In some ways, the main character Mac's grief reminds me of yours. It is beautiful how Mac allows Jesus, the Holy Spirit, and the Father to heal him. I believe you are further along than Mac was in the beginning, but either way, after reading your blog, I was reminded of just the whole healing process for all of humankind from all of our different kinds of grief. Thanks for being open and honest and real. I have to believe your pain must be breaking because of that honesty as opposed to leaving it hidden in your heart like a shadow. Love, Christie Hey Leah. I’m reading THE SHACK right now. Have you read it? In some ways, the main character Mac’s grief reminds me of yours. It is beautiful how Mac allows Jesus, the Holy Spirit, and the Father to heal him. I believe you are further along than Mac was in the beginning, but either way, after reading your blog, I was reminded of just the whole healing process for all of humankind from all of our different kinds of grief. Thanks for being open and honest and real. I have to believe your pain must be breaking because of that honesty as opposed to leaving it hidden in your heart like a shadow.
Love,
Christie

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]]> Comment on Dear loved ones, (family friends, etc.) by Michelle http://themilans.wordpress.com/2009/12/08/dear-loved-ones-family-friends-etc/#comment-144 Michelle Tue, 08 Dec 2009 20:43:36 +0000 http://themilans.wordpress.com/?p=139#comment-144 Leah, I love you and I am praying for you. I'm here if you need anything. If you decide to travel I would love to see you. I am praying that you find rest and encouragement during your visit. I heard Laura Story at my church last night and she was talking about how her husband had a brain tumor during their first year of marriage and she made a very powerful statement. She said it was like she was going down road A and then there was a detour and she really wanted to get back to road A and her sister said, sometimes the detour is the new road altogether and while that was hard to accept that she was glad we have a God who is our hope when we feel like we have none and she sang a song that made me think of you it's called "Make Something Beautiful" I don't know if you'll look it up or not but if you do I hope it encourages you. Leah, I love you and I am praying for you. I’m here if you need anything. If you decide to travel I would love to see you. I am praying that you find rest and encouragement during your visit. I heard Laura Story at my church last night and she was talking about how her husband had a brain tumor during their first year of marriage and she made a very powerful statement. She said it was like she was going down road A and then there was a detour and she really wanted to get back to road A and her sister said, sometimes the detour is the new road altogether and while that was hard to accept that she was glad we have a God who is our hope when we feel like we have none and she sang a song that made me think of you it’s called “Make Something Beautiful” I don’t know if you’ll look it up or not but if you do I hope it encourages you.

]]> Comment on healing…be warned, to understand, you have to read everything. by Nicole http://themilans.wordpress.com/2009/11/24/healing-be-warned-to-understand-you-have-to-read-everything/#comment-143 Nicole Wed, 25 Nov 2009 05:01:09 +0000 http://themilans.wordpress.com/?p=124#comment-143 Hey bud, you know I love you and I'm here for you when you need it. Great post, super reflective, very honest, and I feel like I understand a lot more now. As always, let me know if you want to chill.. or walk.. or partake in coffee. I'm up for any of it. - Nicole Hey bud, you know I love you and I’m here for you when you need it. Great post, super reflective, very honest, and I feel like I understand a lot more now. As always, let me know if you want to chill.. or walk.. or partake in coffee. I’m up for any of it.

- Nicole

]]> Comment on healing…be warned, to understand, you have to read everything. by Michelle http://themilans.wordpress.com/2009/11/24/healing-be-warned-to-understand-you-have-to-read-everything/#comment-141 Michelle Wed, 25 Nov 2009 02:00:17 +0000 http://themilans.wordpress.com/?p=124#comment-141 I love you Leah! I am still praying for you. It's hard to be lonely. I am here if you ever need to talk...or just call and cry. Anytime, you know the number! I love you Leah! I am still praying for you. It’s hard to be lonely. I am here if you ever need to talk…or just call and cry. Anytime, you know the number!

]]> Comment on healing…be warned, to understand, you have to read everything. by Miss Becky http://themilans.wordpress.com/2009/11/24/healing-be-warned-to-understand-you-have-to-read-everything/#comment-140 Miss Becky Wed, 25 Nov 2009 00:12:04 +0000 http://themilans.wordpress.com/?p=124#comment-140 Leah, My heart is breaking for you and for Brandon because of your loss. I have to say your blog brought me to tears. I know the emptiness that comes with that kind of depression. I fight with it myself. It is a struggle that is always almost right there on the surface of my life like a dark shadow lurking in the corner of the room I am in. But I go on and do what I am supposed to do. I am the devoted wife, good mom and caring nurse that I am supposed to be. But then once in a while for no reason at all BAM!!! there it is right in my face. This all came to a head for me a few years ago when Mr Kevin and I were supposed to move out of town, or so we thought. We did everything right; we put the house up for sale, I quit my job, Kevin talked to persons about a job. Our house sold in 7 days! We were not ready yet so the lady let us live in the house for another month after closing. The timing was not God's timing though everything fell apart and so did I. It got so bad I could not even get out of bed. I was supposed to help Bryan and Elise make plans for their wedding but I could not get out of bed, there were no physical reasons. O I had my physical ailments but this was not one of them. I cried and I cried and I cired but no one understood why not even me. I just knew I could not go out of my room. I talked to a good psychologist friend from our church and also went to see my doctor. I had to start taking medication to help me. Slowly my life started to come back. My life! Not my husband's or my kid's, my life! I started my blog to get my feelings out somewhere. I went back to working at a job I love and I went back to school because I wanted to do something for my self. You might be wondering why did I just tell you all of this, we barely know each other. After all you are just friends of my son and his wife, but since you and Brandon have been gone I have been praying for you both. Leah, you maybe in a very small town where you can not get to a job but there is a world out there at your finger tips right infront of your computer screen. Search out what you love, create, and share, and create some more. You are very talented and God has a very special use for you. Just know I will be here in front of my computer reading your blogs and your posts on facebook and praying for you. Always. All my love in Christ Miss Becky Leah, My heart is breaking for you and for Brandon because of your loss.
I have to say your blog brought me to tears.
I know the emptiness that comes with that kind of depression. I fight with it myself. It is a struggle that is always almost right there on the surface of my life like a dark shadow lurking in the corner of the room I am in. But I go on and do what I am supposed to do. I am the devoted wife, good mom and caring nurse that I am supposed to be. But then once in a while for no reason at all BAM!!! there it is right in my face. This all came to a head for me a few years ago when Mr Kevin and I were supposed to move out of town, or so we thought. We did everything right; we put the house up for sale, I quit my job, Kevin talked to persons about a job. Our house sold in 7 days! We were not ready yet so the lady let us live in the house for another month after closing. The timing was not God’s timing though everything fell apart and so did I.
It got so bad I could not even get out of bed. I was supposed to help Bryan and Elise make plans for their wedding but I could not get out of bed, there were no physical reasons. O I had my physical ailments but this was not one of them. I cried and I cried and I cired but no one understood why not even me. I just knew I could not go out of my room.
I talked to a good psychologist friend from our church and also went to see my doctor. I had to start taking medication to help me. Slowly my life started to come back. My life! Not my husband’s or my kid’s, my life! I started my blog to get my feelings out somewhere. I went back to working at a job I love and I went back to school because I wanted to do something for my self.
You might be wondering why did I just tell you all of this, we barely know each other. After all you are just friends of my son and his wife, but since you and Brandon have been gone I have been praying for you both.
Leah, you maybe in a very small town where you can not get to a job but there is a world out there at your finger tips right infront of your computer screen. Search out what you love, create, and share, and create some more. You are very talented and God has a very special use for you.
Just know I will be here in front of my computer reading your blogs and your posts on facebook and praying for you. Always.
All my love in Christ
Miss Becky

]]> Comment on healing…be warned, to understand, you have to read everything. by Adam http://themilans.wordpress.com/2009/11/24/healing-be-warned-to-understand-you-have-to-read-everything/#comment-139 Adam Tue, 24 Nov 2009 23:42:17 +0000 http://themilans.wordpress.com/?p=124#comment-139 Leah, I love you. That makes me cry sis. My heart hurts for you. I don't know how to help. I should call more. Sorry. Leah,

I love you. That makes me cry sis. My heart hurts for you. I don’t know how to help. I should call more. Sorry.

]]> Comment on healing…be warned, to understand, you have to read everything. by Sarah http://themilans.wordpress.com/2009/11/24/healing-be-warned-to-understand-you-have-to-read-everything/#comment-138 Sarah Tue, 24 Nov 2009 23:28:54 +0000 http://themilans.wordpress.com/?p=124#comment-138 Leah. I love you. I understanding that it was hard for you to be so honest but I appreciate your honesty and transparency. I am keeping you and Brandon in my thoughts. If you ever need to talk please don't hesitate to get in touch with me. I know what it's like to be in the great North so I can relate to a lot of what you said about culture shock. I have not forgotten your special package. I have it sitting in my living room. Just got to send it. Again, I love you. Leah. I love you. I understanding that it was hard for you to be so honest but I appreciate your honesty and transparency. I am keeping you and Brandon in my thoughts. If you ever need to talk please don’t hesitate to get in touch with me. I know what it’s like to be in the great North so I can relate to a lot of what you said about culture shock. I have not forgotten your special package. I have it sitting in my living room. Just got to send it. Again, I love you.

]]> Comment on Weeping may tarry for the night… by Corrie Coats http://themilans.wordpress.com/2009/10/29/weeping-may-tarry-for-the-night/#comment-137 Corrie Coats Sat, 31 Oct 2009 00:57:11 +0000 http://themilans.wordpress.com/?p=122#comment-137 You probably don’t remember me I am a really good friend of Jada’s and have only met you one time but I want to share something with you!! My husband and I have now have three beautiful children but after our first two were born, I got pregnant and lost my baby at work. I can remember people saying to me that oh aren’t you soo glad you already have children and I wanted to stand up and scream but I wanted that one! My life became a constant battle to hide from what had happen and to try and remember that I was blessed. But i hid for too long and one day it all came crashing down and I hit rock bottom. I want you to know as a parent who has lost a child, and my friend you are a parent even if it was only for a short time, you need to let Leah and yourself be angry and sad and don’t hold it in! I hope you know that I am hear praying for you and that will continue until you are at peace and find a new normal to your life. I can say that the Lord did bless me through this time in my life and I came out the other end much stronger but still a little bit broken, a broken that doesn’t fix just lives with you! If Leah needs to talk or you need an extra prayer or a ear to rant to please feel free to call on me!! My prayers and blessing are with you, Corrie Coats You probably don’t remember me I am a really good friend of Jada’s and have only met you one time but I want to share something with you!! My husband and I have now have three beautiful children but after our first two were born, I got pregnant and lost my baby at work. I can remember people saying to me that oh aren’t you soo glad you already have children and I wanted to stand up and scream but I wanted that one! My life became a constant battle to hide from what had happen and to try and remember that I was blessed. But i hid for too long and one day it all came crashing down and I hit rock bottom. I want you to know as a parent who has lost a child, and my friend you are a parent even if it was only for a short time, you need to let Leah and yourself be angry and sad and don’t hold it in! I hope you know that I am hear praying for you and that will continue until you are at peace and find a new normal to your life. I can say that the Lord did bless me through this time in my life and I came out the other end much stronger but still a little bit broken, a broken that doesn’t fix just lives with you! If Leah needs to talk or you need an extra prayer or a ear to rant to please feel free to call on me!!
My prayers and blessing are with you,
Corrie Coats

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